I've always whined about feeling like I'm about to die. Today, I really feel like I'm at the brink of death. It feels so suffocating to have all these stupid assignments and oral presentations swamped over me. I need some room to breathe, I really need a break.

A Much Simpler Time

Today, I found out that one of my favorite teachers from high school has just passed away from liver cancer, may his soul rest in peace. It reminded me of a much simpler time back in high school, where my first priority was my studies and all social constructs are just something that pops out along the way. I didn't need to go out of my way to become someone I'm not just so I can fit in with the crowd. We all loved each other for who we are.

Somehow, I feel like I'm going backwards here in Melbourne. It's as if I'm downgrading myself to more childish ways and resorting to petty actions just to prove a point. I miss the old times. I really do. Hopefully Mr Vejay's passing will serve as a reminder to me, of a much simpler and happier time. A reminder that if you wanna be happy, just keep things simple and don't complicate every matter that comes along your way.

Mr Vejay, you have taught me more than just History. You've taught me how to enjoy my lessons, you've shown me how much you love doing what you do, so much so that even underneath that writhing pain of cancer, you are still able to manage a smile and muster the energy to infect us with laughter.

You will always be in my memory, RIP.

Heart Racing

Its been ages since I've felt this way about someone. You really make me feel like I'm living a teenage dream, which is ironic considering I'm no longer a teenager.

I don't know what is this feeling inside of me, however unfamiliar, I feel like I've felt this way a long time ago. I really hope this is going somewhere and its not just blindness on my side.

Regardless of the outcome, just wanted to remind myself that during this journey, I really enjoyed just being there for you. :)