Can You Hear Me?

Dear C,

It's been 7 months since we've last talked to each other. Ironic how 7 months of deep friendship ended with 7 months of not knowing what had transpired between us.

That gap we have between us now, really left a remarkable scar in my soul. And now, now that I know myself way better than before, truely understand what had happened that had brought us to our present situation.

I was reading your blog and scrolling through your pictures online and realized that 7 months had not changed you one bit. Or maybe I don't really know you in the first place to begin with.

All those old promises that we've vowed to keep, seems like an impossibility now. I stared blankly at my MSN Contact List. You are still there, with your status ever offline. Well, we know better what that means.

Was it really such a big mistake that I did in my part so much so that you've taken hatred as the only option to solve it? If it is, then I am sorry.

What I want you to really understand is, I am very grateful to have had once a great friend like you in my life. And also to thank you for abandoning our friendship and thus teaching me one of the most valueable lesson that I will ever come to acquire in life.

In short, you've changed me, a lot, without even realizing it. You have managed to shape me into what I am today. I no longer lose my temper over the most trivial of matters, in fact, I am mostly calm and easy-going.

I know I've caused you much suffering and confusion way back then, but I am a new person now.

I do not crave for you to accept me as a friend once more, nor do I have any hopes that you'll be reading this. But I know, somehow, if I put this here, word will get to you about it. In my heart, you will always be one of the greatest friends I have ever come to know.

Can you still hear me? I hope you still can.

And if ever, you can find the courage and will to forgive me and start all things over again, I will be more than willing to. I've learnt how to take things easy. That in part, makes all the difference.

Thanks to you. My friend for life.