Sometimes All We Need Is Courage

Sometimes, all we need is courage, to leave all our past behind. To escape from all the good times and bad times that had shaped our current lives. Yet, as easy as it may seem to say these words, I can never seem to find the bravery, the willingness to leave what I've been through behind.

I once sought to be a part of your life, and tried in many desperate ways to achieve that. But your cold shoulders have given me more than enough of an answer, an answer that I dreaded but accept nonetheless.

I thought I could have forgotten you, and move on with my life. But when I return back to where I came from, my past beckons to haunt me. When will I finally have the courage to let go, and tell you that I no longer care?

I am insignificant in your eyes just as unimportant as the others that do what we do best alongside with you. My heart breaks each time you fail to acknowledge me but rejoices each time I see your smile.

What is this?

I cry, everynight in my heart, I yell out for you. But you never came. Because I have never tried to make my existence seem the least present to you.

People tell me you are friendly, but to me, you are unapproachable. I dare not look into your eyes when you look into mine, fearful for the ugly truth you may find out about me. Yet, my mind shrieks to let you know who I truly am.

A simple hello or a grin or smile is all I ask from you.Or maybe, it is too much to ask.

My past is bloody and full of despair. I want to leave them behind but I can't. I want to be someone new in a foreign land but my past is still holding me back.

I don't know how long I can take this anymore. I fear that one day, I might just lose it and then...


The End.