Breathe

Sometimes,
I wish I knew how to not smile,
Sometimes,
I wish I knew how to be sad,
Sometimes,
I wish I knew how to ignore.

Sometimes,
I wish I knew what you want.
Sometimes,
I wish you cared.
Sometimes,
I wish you knew how I feel.

Sometimes,
I wish my existence meant something more to you.
Sometimes,
I wish that I am the first person to come into your mind.
Sometimes,
all I need is just a hug.

Sometimes,
I need you to reach out for me.
Sometimes,
I need you to be there for me.
Sometimes,
I need you to talk to me.

Sometimes,
You never realize,
just how much I cared.

Sometimes,
all the sacrifices I made,
were all in vain.

Sometimes,
I wished I never knew you.
Yet,
Sometimes,
I know I would regret if I hadn't.

But.

Everytime,
I just want you by my side.