Get Up After You Fall

Hello peeps! I'm really sorry for the lack of updates lately, unless you want daily updates on what I've accomplished in my preparation for exams which normally borders along the lines of what I've covered so far for Biology, Chemistry, Calculus, I really do not see the point of updating this blog.

So why the sudden divergence from the original plan you ask?

Simple. I just need to note this down so I can look back at this post and laugh to myself, thinking that I was so stupid once.

Yesterday night was a rather depressing night for me. I have just weathered three nights of library mayhem in which I've done nothing but study for my upcoming exams. Of course, there is the occasional, okay maybe not, the frequent, fooling around with friends the likes of Shen, Michele, Jun Jing, Shi Mei, Izzie, Jiah Lit, Vincent and more. In addition, to make things worse, it has come to my knowledge that a few people that I've been seeing walking about on campus are actually in elite fields such as Dentistry and Medicine.

And it suddenly dawned on me how inferior I was compared to all of them. Here they are, good-looking people who look like they party all the time, and yet they are doing what I dream about doing. Then my mood took a depressing downturn, I felt inadequate and helpless. The world suddenly seemed so large a place for me to be in.

Knowing me, this is rare, considering the fact that I have always proclaimed myself as a divine being, drawing similarities of my ego-ness to that of a God.

Still, I couldn't help but let all those negative thoughts and energy affect me. Until I got home and did some quiet thinking. I realize, here, I have fallen, I have wasted one semester fooling around.

I realize that those smart dudes don't just get into what they got into just cause they are smart, they managed to do so because they worked hard for it too. And here I am, complaining about not being able to see myself achieving the same while I never worked hard to realise those dreams in the first place.

So I have concluded, it's time to get up. I've fallen down, and I've stayed down for almost a two months now. It is really time to get myself up and start fighting for what I think is a worthy battle.

If they can do it, so can I. Have faith, work hard and persevere. Besides, I'm not stupid, I'm just lazy.

Get up after you fall Eric, always remember that.