Sick

I'm sick and tired of myself. I'm sick and tired of my lifestyle.

I'm sick and tired with how I look, I'm sick and tired with my weight. I'm sick and tired with how I wear the same stuff over and over again. I'm sick and tired with how unfit I feel each time I try to even get up from my chair.

I'm sick and tired with how I get by every day by doing the same non-constructive things. I'm sick and tired of procrastinating. I'm sick and tired of having to say 'I'll leave it till the next day'.

Thus far, I have not made full use of my everyday. I have slacked at home. I have damaged my body by eating unhealthily for the past year and a half.

I came to Melbourne a healthy albeit a lil overweight chap. And with winter as my excuse, I've turned into this unhealthy near obese teenager!

I aim for Medicine because I really want to save lives one day but until now I have yet to make any significant sacrifices on my part to actually make sure that I'll be able to pursue my education in that field!

I AM SICK OF ALL THESE!

It is time for change. And I know this time I mean it because I have alluded to this many times in my previous posts but unless I manage to get it out in the open, and unless I admit it in front of the whole world, I know I'll just keep running away from it.

So there it goes, I've spilled my heart out here. Now it is seriously time for change!

I want to live healthily.

I want to study hard.

I want to make full use of my time instead of just rotting away at home watching drama series.

Henceforth,

I shall dance more than ever.

I shall keep up with my tasks and even do some additional reading.

I shall cease to eat out unless absolutely necessary.

I shall cease to eat snacks, junk food, fast food, late night suppers, teatime meals.

I shall walk instead of taking the tram.

I shall wake up and sleep at normal hours.

I shall do more productive things than sitting around doing nothing.

I shall not leave my dishes undone in the sink. I will wash it immediately! Instead of procrastinating!

I shall hone my dance skills so well until I become one of those that people admire, instead of having to admire people's dancing abilities all the time.

I SHALL STRIVE FOR PERFECTION.

I am fiercely determined right now, so let's just hope this stays with me.

P/S: It means I need your support guys by constantly being there for me and reminding me of my goals if you see that I'm falling off the train.

ONWARD TO A NEW DAY!!!!!