Reasoning

I woke up feeling like I could take on the world today.

Then you had to come crawling back into my life and peel up those scars that have barely healed themselves. Those war wounds. When will the pain stop?

Why wouldn't you just leave me alone? Why must you constantly remind me that at one point in my life, you existed?

I tried every measure possible to shut you out but you clawed your way back in at every chance.

I need you to get out of my life, permanently.

Then I gradually realize..

You're my shadow. I know I need to face you one day. But the only way to destroy you is to embrace the darkness. Shadows can't exist when there is no light. I have to be brave, and not be afraid of the darkness anymore.

When things start falling apart around me, I don't just go running away from the debris anymore. I hold my ground and I try to put them back, even if it means I have to do it piece by piece.

I'm not that same person two years ago anymore. I'm a stronger, much mature person. I have the courage to look up and hold my head high.

You do not dictate what I do, for I have purged you. And I will not allow you to resurface because you have caused far too much harm the last time you were around.

I am still me, two years ago, only so much better.