Sometimes you lie on your bed and wonder what exactly are your dreams and ambitions? That sort of feeling you get when you try to peek into your future, and all that returns is a vast darkness.
I've been getting that feeling a lot lately. What exactly do I want out of my life? Who I really am? Who I was, and who I wanna be. (accidental quote from The Fray heh)
I aspire to be so many things but yet I do not strive towards any of them. I vehemently claim that I will pursue my dreams to the very end but my will and determination seems to last as long as two dawns. I claim to want to reorganize my life but yet I just let those little things slip by and slowly I descend back into self-imposed anarchy.
You have to figure out what you want Eric, and you have better damn well do that soon. You're already twenty, not a lot of time left before you go out to the real world out there and fight for yourself!
But with my current situation, I am just at a lost. A lost of what I should do, which path I should take. I need a compass. A metaphorical one so to speak. I do not want people to dictate how I should do things but at the same time I really cannot discern the correct way for me to walk down.
I can only place my faith in You now, that You will guide me through this perilous time. Give me wings, so that I can fly. Push me up a lil more, and maybe I will soar.
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